Chapter 29 Regina

• I've spent the last twenty minutes trying to understand what is happening and what it is I truly want but I don't have a clear answer. Does Federico want me? I think so. Do I want him or do I just like knowing he wants me? I've only ever been in a relationship with one man. Growing up, any boy who approached me either wanted to make connections for their fathers or were just out to conquer the great Regina Vincelli. Bets were placed to see who would win and some went as far as hiring people I'd to seduce me. It was the reason I fell in love with Christian. He did everything he could to push me away so I knew that if I managed to change his mind, his feelings for me would be true. After him, I wasn't interested in anyone else. I couldn't stomach the thought of another man touching me.
• Despite living with Federico for two years, not once was I attracted to him. He became someone I could rely on and trust but nothing more. After all these years, why now? He's had several lovers, some of whom he flaunted right in my face but I didn't care. I viewed him as someone I could trust my daughter with. If anything happened to me, I knew he'd take care of her. There were no other feelings between us. I didn't even confide in him about my problems.
• But when I reminded him about his girlfriend earlier and he agreed, I felt a sliver of jealousy. How can he want me and be with someone else? What does he see in her anyway?