Chapter 68

• I don't know how to describe what my heart is feeling right now. I have by my side the man I have loved for years, even though I wanted to ignore it, it was impossible. It was very impossible with a man as handsome as him, and moreover, on many occasions, even though I call him a despicable child because that's what he really is, he brings out these feelings towards his family that make me want to love him even more.
• Now I have given myself to him physically, but not emotionally! I would do it emotionally if he ever took me seriously in life. But if, by some twist of fate, it's not meant to be for me, I will simply let him go because it's my heart that will be hurt. Yes, I know, I am already in the flames of hell, being in Maksyn's hands is an uncontrollable desire. I wonder what I will do when he doesn't make me his own...
• This makes me think of all the women who have been through him. I know I'm not an expert, but even though you may not believe it, I prepared myself a lot for this moment. I really wanted this to happen, you know what I like the most? The way he looks at me, touches me, and kisses me. Sometimes his kisses are filled with love, and that's where the confusion of my feelings comes in.