Chapter 7

• - If I knew the consequences.
• If only I knew
• What would happen when I leave
• What would happen when I went
• To speak to him.
• Benjamin Carson.
• I would've never left to go meet him.
• If only I knew that
• I would never come back again.
• Never going to see my baby boy.
• Never in a million years would I guess that
• I would leave Elijah.
• Even if I'm forced.
• I would've never left the house
• That night if only I knew.
• ~~ SofiaValentines
• Sofia's POV.
• So today is the day when I finally confess. When I will finally tell Benjamin Carson Black about my past, and everything I did, I'll have to tell him about the stripping, the rape, the abuse, and everything else. I just hope he won't lose his temper. Everyone knows if he does lose his temper, not even his own sister Charlotte can stop him. But one thing I know for sure is that I won't tell him about Elijah. I know if I tell him about Elijah than he will never forgive me.
• On Father's day, Anna told me that Benjamin was there, I still can't believe it. It's like it was meant to be. I guess fate and destiny have their own things planned out. What a coincidence that a father is there for his kid and he doesn't even know it's his. Elijah couldn't stop talking about Benjamin. He's a smart boy and I know somewhere in his heart he knows that Benjamin is his father.
• Elijah saw his picture a few times but it was an accident, he had my phone and saw a picture of us two. He even saw one in an old magazine when I used to go with Benjamin to big parties, farewells, awards, and lots of others. For four years in a row, he got the award for the youngest best businessman in the world.
• Elijah asked me about Benjamin as soon as I got home that day. But I lied to him and just told him that Benjamin is an old friend of mine. Five times. F - I - V - E ! times he asked me the same question and I still lied to him. I just hope one day he will know that I was only protecting him. His father believed I cheated on him, so I actually don't owe him anything the only people I owe something are Elijah, Marko, Anna, and of course Annette I still got to buy her the doll Elijah broke.
• Today is Sunday, the day I don't actually work. The longest day for me. All I have to do now is take Elijah to Anna's house and go speak to Benjamin. How hard can that be? God, I wish I could say it isn't hard. But this is one of the hardest things I'm going to have to do.
• Anna is my neighbor. Her house is opposite my house, that's why I'm usually always there.
• "Mommy I'm ready ?" Elijah stood in front of me, wearing a blue T-shirt and shorts. I can't believe my three-year-old son dressed himself up. I'm so damn proud of him. I love him so much that it remains me of how my mother used to care about me before my father's death. All she ever cared about after my father's death was money. One thing we didn't have, so she married the richest old guy she could find. Who didn't turn become my stepfather but instead he became my rapist.
• "Are you forgetting your jacket, Eli?" I asked him knowing he didn't want his jacket. I don't get why kids don't like jackets. Even when I was a kid I never liked it.
• "In my bag mommy." If he is lying to me than he will just have to wear Annette's pink clothes which he hates a lot. He really is a mini devil. He is Benjamin's son after all.
• "Okay. Let's go." I opened the door took his hand and crossed the road, I didn't want him walking alone just in case he gets bumped or kidnapped. I don't trust this city, after all, it is New York. They say it's the city that never sleeps which means the criminals are always awake. At least that's what I believe.
• As we entered Anna's house Elijah ran upstairs, I know he went up there just to irritate Annette.
• "So Sofia, you still haven't changed your mind ?" We both pulled out a chair and sat on it. Did she have to talk about that only?
• "I'm not going to Anna and you know it." Last week I told Anna everything after she said Benjamin was at Elijah's pre-kindergarten. She wanted to beat Benjamin up, but I begged her not to. Anna, Charlotte, and Marko are the only three people that know everything about me. Last year I opened up to Anna and Marko. And Charlotte I have always been close ever since we met again. She is pregnant and I am very happy for her. She deserves better than Damien, she deserves the world.
• "I don't get why you being stubborn. Sofia are you sure about everything?" She asked me this a million times since last week if I'm sure and of course I am sure than why doesn't she believe me.
• "Yes. I'm going to go there, that's why I want you to look after Elijah for me please." I always knew she loved Elijah and would look after him anytime but I just wanted to ask her again and change the subject. Charlotte met Elijah already and I told her the truth. And she even promised to never tell Benjamin.
• "Of course I will. His my son after all." I just love Anna so much.
• I got up.
• "See you tonight Anna." I walked out of the door and I knew there was no Turing back. Years of keeping this secret. The darkest secret I will ever have. It's finally the day, I tell Benjamin the truth. He deserves to know the truth, the least I can do for him.
• One thing I learned during all this is no matter how deep, dark, and horrible the secret is. One day, someday, ready or not, that secret will came to haunt you whether we like it or not. Even if we not ready it will come to catch up with us. We just got to pray that it doesn't ruin our lives. That it doesn't destroy us.
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• Last time I came to this building that Marko works in I didn't know Benjamin owned it. So this time I plan on taking the private elevator to number seven. I don't care even if I'm not allowed to go in the private elevator, I'm still going to go in whether anyone likes it or not.
• "Sorry Miss it's only for the boss, not even his father takes this elevator." A guy shouted who I believe is one of the guards.
• "There's the public elevator." Another guy shouted putting his finger on the public elevator.
• But I didn't care, I still can't believe even his father doesn't go in the elevator. I know Charlotte and him love each other but they like to annoy one another. Which means Charlotte goes with this private elevator.
• I arrived at Benjamin's office. I didn't even bother knocking I only opened the door.
• "Who the fuck do you think you are?" He asked before turning around. He was shocked to see me but he still had a smirk on his face.
• "Benjamin!" That's all I said as I took my seat.
• "Make yourself at home." And just like that he was sitting in front of me, Three years and almost seven months and today I finally tell him the truth.
• "Finally, it took you so long Sofia." He said looking at my eyes.
• "Let's just get it over and done with Benji - Benjamin." I almost called him his nickname, what's wrong with me? He giggled at me.
• "Looks like you need a minute to yourself so why don't I start with my secrets so you can have the courage, to tell the truth, and I don't want to hear any more lies Sofia." Did he really change that he actually said something like a normal human would say? "Don't think too much of it, I'm only telling you because I want to know why you did what you did ?" He always had a way of ruining a moment. After all his last name starts with a C which should've stand for Curse instead of Carson.
• "Don't tell me you want to tell me that you had a side job before you became a billionaire and it was the 'Omerta' which you stopped for some reason." My big mouth started blubbing. I can't believe I said all that, the shock on his face. He started laughing and got up and I know when he laughs like that, it is not a good sign. God help me, he's going to lose his temper before I tell him about my own dark secrets. He throws all the papers on his desk. He looked me in the eyes, and these eyes remind me of the night he threw me out of the house. Is he going to kill me? This moment was the one I was scared of that is why I never tell him anything.
• Next thing, I heard was a knock on the door and someone came in. Thank you my lord, for saving me.
• "Boss here's Mr. Hassan." A woman who was wearing the shortest skirt I ever, came in with a man who is my boss. Damn, I'm dead. What if he fires me because of Benjamin.
• "Ms. Sofia Valentines, are you looking for another job ?" Hassan asked me, but I couldn't take my eyes off Benjamin, he looked at me with a smile.
• "Well, well, well. Bravo Sofia. I can't believe I wanted to give you a job when you already had one. You were playing me this whole time." Benjamin finally spoke after a long time. I don't know what the hell he's talking about, or what's he playing at. But whatever he is up to, I don't like it.
• "Ms. Sofia you do know lots of people would wish to be working for me but after you told me about your circumstances I gave you the job because I also know how it feels, but this, this is unexpectable, I'm sorry to say this but last week was your last warning, you fired. I'm sorry once again Ms. Sofia." Hassan González is one of the honest, nicest people I know. He gave me lots of chances and helped me a lot but today, because of Benjamin Carson. I'm fired, no job and I got a kid whose in pre-kindergarten and I still have to pay rent.
• "I'm sorry sir for everything I did and thank you so much. To tell you the truth I was never here to apply for a job. I promise. But I don't want the job back its fine. I know you believe Benjamin over me just like Benjamin believed other people over me." A tear dropped without me noticing it.
• "I'll give you two a few minutes." Hassan left, leaving me and Benjamin alone. Hassan my ex-boss is a thirty-five-year-old man who's married with two kids. He has helped me a lot but today, he failed me but I don't blame him. Benjamin is a rich businessman and I just work for him.
• "Meet me tonight at my restaurant." Benjamin started picking his papers up. I can't believe I was fired because of him and he's just acting like nothing happen. This guy really never changes he is a guy with no feelings.
• "No." I'll never meet him at his restaurant, what if he kills me.
• "What do you mean no?" He stood up and looked me in the eye, I knew he was angry but I didn't care. I already lost so much.
• "We meet at the crossing restaurant or you just have to live without knowing the truth." I knew I had him where I wanted, he's going to have to agree because he can't force me.
• "Fine see you at 8 don't be late." The first time we doing things my way. I just hope everything works out.