Chapter 4

• Sofia’s POV.
• --Flashback--
• So a few months ago if someone asked me if I’m married I would’ve said NO. And if I planned on getting married, then I would’ve said no and just laugh. But now, now I’m a married woman. A week ago was the day I finally said I do to him. But we all know when we young we have a specific dream wedding. And that wedding I had was nice but, this is all just fake. This is a deal between a billionaire asshole and me.
• Today, my ‘HUSBAND’ and his partners are having a party, and he asked me to come with after all I’m his wife and he has to bring a partner. When I accepted the deal I told him that he could bring any women home, because I would never sleep with him. But so far he didn’t.
• He asked me to marry him not even knowing about my past, All he knows is that my parents are dead. Well literally one of them is still alive but who gives a shit about a mother who didn’t believe her daughter, that was getting rape under her nose, getting abuse, by her own stepfather.
• Next year this time I’ll be a millionaire. I know you guys are thinking I’m a gold digger a bitch, slut, whore you name it. But I can assure you that I’m not. Yes, I accepted the deal. But I did it because I needed the money to go away from London. This place is the---
• “Sofia, I’m going to fucking leave you if you don’t come down right now!” Benjamin started shouting from downstairs. Shit, I’m not even ready yet.
• “I’m coming, give me a couple of minutes, please.” I said acting as if I am ready but I’m not even close to being ready. He will leave me behind and I will be alone in this boring house.
• “Sofia, I’m definitely leaving!” He yelled like the crazy guy he is.
• “Where are you going, babe?” I asked teasing him. I know he wants to leave me again like our engagement party. That night is a night t I will never forget.
• “To the party.” Shit, he will seriously leave me.
• “But I’m not ready.” I said as I heard the door slammed. I quickly got dressed and ran out of the house.“Benjamin, wait.” I said shouting and running down the street. It’s the second time his making me chase after the car. The first time well it was our engagement. And now, now I’m running after his car down the street like a crazy person. I’ll kill this man one day. I don’t know how anyone puts up with him but believe me when I say his arrogant heartless and has the worst temper ever. Okay so you guys read books about arrogant and those kinds of men but you think they have a soft heart and in the end, the guy still cares about the girl. But I wish my life was like that. Benjamin Carson Black is a man with no feelings. And I knew that from the first time I met him. Girls will approach him and he will insult them. He has no respect.
• “Are you seriously going to fucking stare at me the whole time?” He has no respect and he’s asking me that. “You going to pop a vein out and I’ll just laugh at you Sofia.” He said as if he ever laughs. Benjamin Carson, the number one Billionaire bachelor got married to a bitch called Sofia Valentines. That was the headlines of a thousand magazines and the TV. But not once did he tell any of his company to take it off. He actually didn’t give a damn about me. But him laughing at me if I pop a vein, that will never happen. Because Benjamin Carson never laughs. At least that’s what I heard. “So we are going to be doing the silent treatment now?” If I had a gun with millions of bullets I would only shoot this arrogant asshole.
• “You made me chase after a fucking car!” I replied glaring at him. I hate him so much, now I wish I never accepted that deal.
• “I was giving you exercise, you getting fat.” How dare he say that to me. Everyone that sees me always says I’m thin, or ask if I ever eat and the excuse he gave, was I needed to exercise.
• “I hate you so much.” I was still looking at him not taking my eyes of. And did I forgot to mention that he told all the maids to go clean his other mansions because he has a “wife” to clean this mansion?
• “As if I care. If I was you Sofia Valentines I would behave tonight.” He said while parking the car.
• As we went in I could see all the eyes were on him. The man of the hour. Then came Charlotte telling me to go with her. The only family of his that I love is Charlotte Carson. She may be a Carson but she’s not bad. She can be tolerated, unlike Benjamin.
• “How you Sofia? How’s being a Carson?” She asked waiting for a reaction from me.
• “It has its pecks.” She handed me a drink and then she made a toast.
• "Carsons for life.”
• "Carsons for life" I repeated. Again and again, until I totally lost it and became drunk. I took so many shots. Charlotte went to go speak to her friend forgetting about me at the bar. But I started remembering my childhood the abuse. So I started ordering more shots until Benjamin came.
• “What the fuck you doing?” Benjamin asked me but I didn’t give a damn. I just laughed at him.
• “Leave me alone.”
• “They want me to introduce my wife to them, and what I’m looking at right now is not my fucking wife but a fucking drinker. Sies don’t you feel ashamed. You--” before he could finish those sentences I cut him off. That word he said “ashamed.” Made me lose it.
• If people were ever ashamed then not many girls would’ve been abused or raped. Not many people would’ve been bullied. And damn him for telling me to be ashamed. A guy with no feelings.
• So I walked to a chair and I stand on it and took a glass of champagne.
• “May I have your attention, everybody.” I shouted on top of my lungs.
• “I’ll kill you get the hell down, right now.” Benjamin whispered.
• “Will you shut up Benji.” I said still standing on the chair.
• “Now as I was saying ladies and gentlemen my husband here just said the word ‘ashamed’ to me. But you guys know nothing about him. He’s an asshole, he thinks everyone is scared of him. But I am scared of him.” I took a long pause before I continued. Then again I heard Benjamin say ‘stop wanting attention Sofia.’ That was the last push I needed after he said that I broke down. My stepfather would always say ‘I’m giving you attention rather than your mother. At least I care.’ That old man knew nothing about care, he was just a fucking rapist. And my mother would always yell at me and say ‘Stop wanting attention.’ Benjamin made me remember all of this made me lose it.
• “Fuck you all the fucking VALENTINES. I curse the day I was born to them. Fuck you MARTIN BLACK I hope you are dead by now. Fuck you mommy dear Mary Valentine’s Black. And fuck you Daddy for leaving me. Leaving me alone, with them.” I wiped my tears. It’s time I stopped crying over everything. ” I see my dear husband burning up. Are you alright sweetheart?” I giggled. “You know the day before the wedding day he was sleeping around. That’s my amazing husband to you. He makes me chase after his car every day whenever I’m going with him. So fuck you too BENJAMIN CARSON.” I am not scared of him anymore. I am tired of being innocent Sofia. “I was 16 when --” before I finished Benjamin grabbed me. But I wasn’t finished so I started hitting him. “By the way Mr. Green you an ugly son of a bitch and Benjamin said You-- You have a soccer ball head.” I shouted.
• Benjamin dragged me out and threw me in a car. Benjamin started blabbing but I just fell asleep in the car.
• When I woke up the next day I was still in the car. The damn asshole didn’t take me inside the house.
• ** End of flashback **
• “Mommy wake up its Father’s Day, at school today.” Elijah jumped on the bed waking me up.
• “Get in the shower, uncle Marko will be there later.” I said and he started pouting at me. I knew he didn’t want uncle Marko to come to school. But that’s all I got for him.
• “No mommy, it’s fine the teacher said if we don’t have daddies we must not bring other people.” Oh god please give me strength this boy is making me guilty now. I bathed him and dressed him up quickly because I was running late. I just hope my boss doesn’t fire me. This is my third job here in New York. The others I quit because they were all sick in the head. They all tried to make a move on me. So I quit.
• As I started driving I could see Elijah angry staring out of the window. I know he blames his father, but he doesn’t know he’s got a son. And it’s my fault. But all I’m doing is to protect my son because I know he’s got, enemies. But he thinks I know nothing about his secrets.
• “Bye mommy.” Elijah kissed me on the cheek and I kissed him too. I love this son of mine so much, that I would kill for him. I don’t know how someone can hate their child.
• ***
• Third person’s POV.
• “Where’s your father Elijah.” A few boys walked up to him together and asked him. And they all started laughing at him.
• "My father is bu-busy.” Elijah replied not knowing what to actually say, because he also never saw his own father.
• "Mommas boy.” A five-year-old kid said laughing at him. Then the rest joined him.
• From a distance, a man was watching the kids arguing. Until he saw Elijah bunch the other kid. And a teacher came to take them in.
• "My son would never fight with anyone. This boy started it.” Grey shouted as he pointed at Elijah saying he is the one that started with my kid.
• “No, I did not. Dorian and his father are both lying.” Elijah said trying to defend himself from a five-year-old boy and his father.
• "Where’s your father? He’s not here, no wonder he doesn’t want to be embarrassed because of you.” Dorian’s father, Mr Grey said making poor Elijah almost cry. But the teacher just left because she got a call.
• “My father loves me.” Elijah sticks his tongue out as a tear dropped from his eyes. Dorian and his father both laughed at him. Just then a man walked in and looked at Dorian and his father. The mysterious man started laughing at them
• “If I was you I would get away from my son before I teach you some manners. Old man.” Benjamin said crossing his arm angry at Dorian’s father for bullying a small kid, younger than his son.
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