Chapter 5 Apartment

• I didn't know I fell asleep until I was awakened by someone knocking at my door. I get up from my bed not caring what I am wearing or who was knocking. I open my door while yawning.
• "Yes? What do you want?" I asked the intruder while scratching my eyes. I was still in a dizzy state.
• When I didn't hear anything I looked up....then I felt all my blood drain from my body. I felt numb and I know my eyes pop like a balloon. What the hell! Are my eyes playing tricks on me?
• I saw a smirk on his face but it changed when he looked at my body intensely. I felt like his stare left fire on my body. Oh my God I am just wearing my big shirt that's covering up to my butt. I don't even have a bra! For heaven's sake!
• I was about to say something but my mouth didn't cooperate. He didn't say a word either. He walked towards me. My heart is pumping so fast. I can smell his cologne and oh boy my body is heating up. He is fucking invading my personal space. Our faces are mere inches away. I close my eyes automatically waiting for the kiss to happen...but instead he pushes the door wide and he enters the room.
• Oh shit! What are you thinking Athea! Hold yourself!
• "You can close the door now, I'm already inside." His voice is cold and I can hear him angry.
• Just like a robot I did what he asked for. I close the door and I lean into it not knowing what to do next. There are so many questions floating in my head right now. How the hell did he know where I live?
• "Next time, don't just open your door if you were just wearing it. What if it's not me." His voice is calm yet full of authority.
• I feel like a volcano ready to explode.
• "W-who are you to say what I should do and wear!"
• "Come here."
• Is he deaf or something? He just neglected what I just said. "N-no! Stay away from me!" I stammered.
• He smirked and he slowly walk towards me. I panicked, I wanted to run but my feet had its own mind. Shit. I am on a deepshit! I need to be far away from him..I don't trust myself..but before I can move from my spot he put his two hands on my both sides and cages me. I gulp and I can frantically hear my heart beating so loud.
• "W-what are you doing? Let go of me.." I should shout right and be mad at him but why does it sound like a plea.
• Of Course what would I expect, he didn't listen. He bent and our nose is almost touching. I can almost smell him. Damn him my knees will collapse anytime soon and shit don't stare Athea on his lips. Just. Don't. This is torture his lips is so...
• This is it he's gonna kiss me this time, I didn't close my eyes to make sure of it..but..he kissed my neck instead. I almost jumped from his sudden move and so God help me I am burning with desire.
• "Relax..I don't bite...that too much.." he whispered. Oh joy the sensation is too much..but before I can react he stood straight in front of me. The smirk is still plastered on his lips.
• Damn you! I don't know how many times I did this course. He is literally a walking sin on this planet earth!
• What is happening to you Athea! You are not like this. You're not weak! Don't you dare act like a hormonal teenager.
• "What are you doing here?" I stood straight also and looked at him. Yes, Athea, do not show this man that you are weak!
• "Hmm.." then he cock his eyebrow at me.
• Then all of a sudden everything that happened last night kept playing in my head. The way I pleaded with him to kiss me last night. The way I beg for him to...I feel like my cheeks are now tainted with red color.
• He looks at me like I'm a damn meat. His smirk grows bigger like he knows what I am thinking.
• "Don't you dare smirk at me!" I shouted at him.
• He is like calculating and observing like I am a prey. His cold eyes are sending chills to my body. "If you have nothing to say and keep on staring at me, you can leave now!"
• He take his coat off and throw it on my small sofa. He stared at me while he started unbuttoning his shirt. He is like challenging me.
• "W-what are you doing!" I feel fear. Not because of what he can do but because of what I can do. I know It'll be hard to resist him..Don't look at his muscles. Don't Athea.
• "It's hot here." That's all he says.
• "B-but! Don't do that!" I panic and run to him, I touch his hand to make him stop but I immediately regret doing it. It's like my hand gets burned and I automatically withdraw my hand.
• I can see a playful smile on his lips. "Don't worry I will not do anything you don't like."
• I don't know if my cheeks can be getting redder by now. He finished unbuttoning his vest and he walked to my little sofa. He sat there and spread his legs like he owned my apartment. His gaze never falters.
• It's awkward to see him sitting on my sofa. My sofa is filthy and small for him. Despite that, he still looks like a hot king. Erase it! I never said he was hot!
• "Sit here." He pointed to the space besides him.
• I want to be weak and do what he says..but hell No! One is enough!
• "No. Tell me why are you here and why the hell did you know where I am living?"
• He seems amused by my sudden outburst.
• "Answer me damn it! Did you stalk me or did you.." I didn't continue what I'am saying because he cut me off.
• "Yes."
• I feel like my soul is separated from my body. Did he know? No it can't be!
• "Y-you! What do you want!" I shouted at him.
• "You." he said it in the most calming voice.
• My mouth wants to say something but no words come out of it. I didn't expect him to answer that. He is enjoying my state right now.
• I tried to relax and collect my thoughts. "Stop playing games with me. You already get what you want from me. So stop pestering me and find someone who is available and ready to serve you anytime you want. I bet there are many girls who want to do that for you" while I'm saying that I feel anger has risen up from my system.
• "You're right."
• Why does his answer feel like someone stabs me right in front of my heart? Fuck this.
• "What are you waiting for? Leave now." I shouted at him. I don't know why I'm furious right now.
• He stood up and started walking. I turned my back from him and started walking to my bed.
• Before I lay in my bed "Close the door when you leave." The coldness in my voice is evident.
• I heard a click in my door that means it's already locked. Why didn't I hear the door open and close? Maybe I just didn't hear it. My heart is aching. I don't know why. At some point I want him to stay. God Athea what are you thinking. You are not meant for him. Don't give false hope to yourself. He doesn't like you. He just thinks that you are easy to lay that's why he searches for you.
• I roll to the edge of my bed and lay like a fetus position. I hate this feeling. It was just one night stand, Athea, nothing else. Okay. Forget him and act like it didn't happen.
• Then I felt like the other side of my bed was sinking and before I could react someone hugged me from the back and pulled me closer. I yelp and I hit something like a wall.
• "Shh, let's sleep.."
• I don't know how I should feel or react in this instance. This man is so impossible. I thought he was already gone. Why is it that I feel happy all of a sudden? I tried to be free from his hold but he wouldn't budge. He is hugging me and his arms and hands are like made of steel.
• "W-what are you doing? I said leave..and who gives you the permission to sleep besides me." I hissed at him.
• "Stop asking and rest. I know you were tired last night..we don't have to do it again tonight..we have a lot of time."
• "W-what the hell! What are you saying! You're unbelievable!" I tried to wiggle and wanted to punch him straight in his handsome face!
• He kissed my head. "Shhh. Reserve your energy for tomorrow. Goodnight."
• I want to answer back and throw foul words but I can sense from his voice that he is tired. So instead of answering back I tried to calm my nerves. The clue word there is TRIED. How can I be calm if I was in the arms of a man who took my virginity?
• I don't understand him..He already gets what he wants. Why can't he just leave me alone and move on. I think I should be the one who must be worried. Right? This man is so complicated.
• I know he has already fallen asleep. His breath is even and I can hear a small snore from him. Is he really tired? There is something in my heart that wants to take care of him. Stop Athea! You can't.
• I felt sad all of a sudden. I know I can't be with him. It's impossible and complicated.
• I sighed. I just treasure this moment while it lasts. This is the last time Athea.
• Why it feel so right in his arms. Why I feel secured right now. Why I feel like I belong in his arms? Before I can think of any reasons sleep take over me.