Chapter 1097 Moonbow (Lesbian Sex):++ 13
- For video number two, I was wearing a deep red lacy lingerie set that vividly contrasted with our couch's backrest. Since I'd used my fingers to get myself off on my bed earlier... This time, I had a sex toy in my right hand. A suction vibrator, like the one I'd gifted Gray but in a hot pink color. The nifty silicone toy's pièce de résistance was its multi-intensity sucking feature. But based on experience, its vibe end was also a godsend when it came to 'self-care.' Among my toys, the mini version of the widely recognizable 'magic wand' was my favorite because of its efficiency. The one I was playing with now came a close second though.
- Since I'd developed an interest in films and filmmaking early, playing with toys had never been my thing. Dolls, handheld consoles or other popular fads from the 2000s..? None of those had ever appealed to me. So, it was safe to say that being a 'sex toy aficionado' in my late twenties wasn't something I would've ever prophesied. However, 'manually getting myself off' ad nauseam couldn't have stood the test of time... Which meant, along with inexpensive lingerie, new sex toys were factored in my tiny production budget.
- Time for 'the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth'... Earlier, during video number one, Gray had popped in my mind. After the initial feelings of shock and confusion, all I'd felt was guilt. Before anyone got the wrong idea, the fact that she was a woman wasn't what bothered me. Although, at present, my mom and I didn't see eye-to-eye on a lot of things... I had to give credit where credit was due. When I was growing up, neither of my parents had taught me to hate or discriminate. On the subject of gay rights, my mom, in particular, had once said something that'd stick with me forever. For her, to be a true supporter of equality, acceptance cannot only be aimed at 'other people.' Like fundamentally, if a person genuinely believed we were all created equal, then they would have no issue with either themself or those closest to them being gay, too. So, no, the realization that I wasn't as straight as I'd first thought didn't upset me since it didn't make me think any less of myself.