Chapter 185 Paying My Own Debts

• Hilary let go after realizing she bit my shoulder until it drew blood. Then, she said to me with tears on her face, “Did you know? When I was twenty years old, I had already begun to fantasize about the birth of my first child. I wondered what they’d look like and how I should dress them. I knew I’d buy them a lot of clothes, and I’d be there when they learn how to walk, to walk, and bring them to play in the playground. But just a few days ago, when I found out I was pregnant, I felt like this was a joke that God was playing on me. Now that the child is gone, it feels like my heart has gone with it too…” She proceeded to cry loudly.
• I didn’t stop her. This kind of emotion would crush her if she kept holding it in, and crying was good for her now. “It's all my fault; I’ve wronged you. I'm sorry, Hil. I’m sorry...” I kept apologizing while holding her tight in my arms.
• Finally, Hilary stopped crying after she had cried for about ten minutes. Realizing that she was still in my arms, she pushed me away immediately and said, “Get away from me!”