Chapter 72

• Kendrix
• I had a rough night after what happened between me and Arielyn, I handled everything wrongly, I messed up and had wanted to go tell her I was sorry and that we could talk it out but then Raul refused to let me pass, even though I explained to him that it was grown up stuff and he shouldn’t interfere, he told me to my face that he would fight me before he would let me into his room because whatever grown-up stuff we talked about made her sad to the point of crying, he sounded so mature and protective of Arielyn that I had walked back to my room in shame. I couldn’t believe a teenager was more mature than me.
• While alone in bed, I went over our conversation from where she asked me what was going on with me. I knew she must have noticed how I was acting recently, when she asked, I wanted to come clean to her but the thought of her leaving me had made me not say a word. I should have just told her. then when I went upstairs, thinking of fixing things, I didn’t find her in our room, yes, it was our room now because we slept in it and did things together there but then I didn’t find her in the room and went to look for her only for her to talk about the mate bond thing which I also manage to handle horribly. She was clearly mistaken as I still didn’t feel any of those pulls that I felt when I met Veronica. I care about Arielyn a lot but I know we are not real mates and honestly, we don’t have to be, I still wanted to be with her. but then, I messed up by making it sound as if I didn’t want her and made her out to be a liar when I could have done better and made sure she understood whatever she felt wasn’t the real thing.