Chapter 60 Pregnancy

• I felt like crying, but I think I had already shed all my tears earlier that day. I lay curled up on the bed, feeling worse than I ever had in my entire life. To me, no situation could ever be worse than the one I found myself in. I had been hurting so badly for the past week, and to think Silas knew about my pain and chose to keep the reason behind it to himself. Did he hope I would never find out I was pregnant until I was pushing a baby out of me? I thought he loved me and had promised to always protect me no matter what, but now he had decided that he would rather protect his unborn child than me. That was a betrayal on a whole different level.
• I was mad at him, and honestly, I wish I could hate him enough to just fuck off entirely, maybe move away somewhere I could get my thoughts together. But the thought of how hurt Silas would be at my actions made me discard the idea immediately. I'm such an idiot; I always thought of him first despite everything that had happened. Despite everything that was to happen, because honestly, I had no idea vampires were even born these days; I had never heard anything about it.
• And since I wasn't a vampire, it would explain why I was always in immense pain. The baby was draining the life out of me. Which was why Silas was always feeding me blood to replenish my energy. This sounded a lot like that scene in the Twilight Saga where Bella nearly lost herself having a baby. Only this wasn't a movie; this was real life, and I had no protagonist halo to protect me from certain death if I didn't do anything to protect myself.