Chapter 39 I Can't Love You Back

• Silas didn’t know how long he stood there, unsure of what to do with himself. There was nothing worse than trying to recover a memory you knew you had but couldn’t access. He felt nothing but regret as he left the room and went after Kerry. He found her with Deric; the other vampire had her in his embrace. His arms were wrapped around her tightly, and he whispered words of comfort into her ears as she cried on his shoulder. It was truly a romantic scene. If Silas didn’t know better, he would think the two of them were lovers who had just been reunited.
• Silas knew he was the reason the girl was crying. The harsh words he had said to her echoed in his mind, and he felt nothing but regret. But how could he bring himself to explain to her how hard he was trying? He wished he could be the person she wanted him to be, but it was hard when he didn’t even know who that was. It felt like two parts of him were fighting against each other. It hurt, but not as much as seeing someone you love in the arms of another and knowing there was nothing you could do about it.
• “Shouldn’t you be on your way?” Silas said coldly. His voice was the interruption the two needed to pull away from each other’s embrace. Kerry looked over at him with tears in her eyes and then quickly averted her gaze. Maybe she didn’t want him to see how sad she was, but Silas could literally smell the sadness radiating from her. It was so strong it was almost tangible. His entire body tensed as he held himself back from going over there and wrapping her in his embrace. He wanted to apologize to her so badly and tell her how much he loved her.