Chapter 8 Again

• I did not reply to her.
• Or I do not even have the guts to reply to her.
• I know. Others might say that it is just for a simple meeting but it is more than that.
• This woman I should be meeting is named Sarah and our relationship is quite complicated.
• Sigh!
• I should think things through from now on. But I always do thorough thinking, is it not a good thing to loosen up a bit by drinking?
• I will think of some things to make it up to her later.
• I better send her a text.
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• 'Good Morning babe. I apologize if I hurt you again. I know it is hard for you to trust me fully. But I messed up again this time, I got so drunk last night from out team familiarization and was not able to meet you this morning. Please allow me to make it up to you when I have free time during this company expansion that I told you about.'
• Sent (Shaun) to (Sarah)
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• Yes. I did not call her to explain what happened because I know her well. She will only believe what she thinks. But I know that she will cool down in time. She knows that I am busy as well so I will make sure to find time.
• After sending the text, I hurriedly got up and put on my clothes. Luckily, I did not vomit on them or maybe Dianne already undressed me before I made a mess out of my shirt.
• I feel very thankful to her and while she is still in the shower I also had to go to my room to freshen up and go back to the office.
• 'Dianne! Thank you for taking care of me. I will go to my room now!', I shouted while walking my way out of the room.
• I did not wait for her reply and just closed the door. Then I got to my room and can only scratch my head again when I recall what I did.
• Have I been so dumb now that I read room 307 as 301?
• What an embarrassment!
• Luckily it was Dianne's room or things could have gotten way different if it was other people's room.
• And with what happened between Dianne and I, it is hard to explain to it myself. Things just happen very past that it is alarming.
• I know it is not okay for me to get those kinds of things from other women whose not the one I love but Dianne is irresistible.
• First, she is a coworker and even my secretary and it would be hard to avoid her.
• Secondly, I am not sure if it is just me but I do not really feel that guilty when Dianne gave me blow j*bs. Why do I feel this way? Am I going back to that state again?
• Third, this reason is a bit twisted , but I kind of do not want Dianne to lose her innocence to other men. I do not want it for myself but I do not want it for others for the reason that majority of men will just vanish after getting what they want. Perhaps, I want to protect Dianne like a big brother.
• But it is really twisted. I feel like a big brother. But why do I allow her to give a blow j*b to her big brother.
• Do I have a split personality?
• Or do I just have a suppressed maniacal side that comes out when I feel lust?
• It is very complicated. For the people who is thinking that I am a beast, I can't argue. But I can ask the same, do you know if your self is still rational when you are making love? Or when you feel lust? I do not think so.
• I hate this feeling of uneasiness and over thinking.
• So I took a deep breath and went to the shower to cool my head down.
• The next day came . . .
• We are now to start our preparations for the expansion and the temporary director has delegated some tasks via email already.
• I told Dianne to ping all the Architects who handles sub teams to gather on the meeting room beside my office.
• Then I disseminated their tasks one by one.
• After a short forum about the objectives being targeted by each teams, the meeting was ajourned.
• In my office . . .
• I was like a statue. With my head on the headrest of my chair and my feet on my desk, I kept on staring at the ceiling.
• 'Ehem. Could you be thinking of how sexy I look sir?'
• I was startled when I heard that.
• I was really in deep thought during that time that I did not even notice someone coming inside the room.
• 'I am sorry to disturb your peaceful time sir. I came in to report the things that we accomplished today with some challenges that other teams encountered.', Dianne added.
• 'It is fine Dianne. Thank you. And you are getting foxy now huh? I do not like getting experimented at but since it is you, I will let it pass.', I replied with a laugh.
• 'Wow. This is the first time that you smiled or laughed today sir. Are you okay?
• And I am not experimenting sir. A friend of mine told me how to be a lady of class. So she said that being timid and all cute is not the way to go on getting lover of someone like you. She said I needed to be headstrong because people like you likes to be challenged.', Dianne told.
• 'Hahaha! You have a grown a lot as a person Dianne. And who ever that friend of yours, she is very crafty, but not all people are like that, I suggest that you show your true self.
• I am quite tired for today. I will just take a nap here in the couch so just leave all the reports on the desk. I will check them out first thing tomorrow. Thank you Dianne.', I replied.
• I surely I am tired for the day. Dianne left all the reports on the desk and got out of my office.
• I laid down on the couch and a few minutes later, my eyes closed.
• I did not know how many hours I slept but I was awoken by a familiar thing in the resort last time.
• Yes! Someone is getting a feel for my crotch area again.
• Why is this happening to me?!!
• I panicked and hurriedly got up. And during the process, I hit the person's jaw with my knee.
• Ouch! She exclaimed.
• I saw that the person was Dianne.
• 'I am sorry Dianne. I was shocked so I panicked. Hehe.', I said apologetically.
• 'My bad sir. I should not creep up to you like this but I do not know why you said something about me when I got inside the room sir.
• You said something like I am very sexy and good at giving you oral s*x. You also groaned in expectation to take it further. So I was not able to stop myself from feeling your crotch area.', she replied.
• What?!!! I said those things while sleeping?
• Nooo! This is getting serious now. Am I really going back to my dark days?
• 'I see. Please do not mind that Dianne. It is just a thing men say in their dreams. I dreamt of what happened last time when I had the short nap, just nevermind. I do not think this is a healthy thing. We should stop. And why are you here?', I spoke with seriousness.
• 'I also do not know why sir. I just had the urge to check on you and I was right, you are still here. I thought you were cold or something so I came to check on you. I really do not have other intentions.', she meekly replied.
• Seeing that she really brought a blanket for me, my heart warmed.
• 'And I did expect for you to say that. I know in my self sir that I am not an easy girl. But if it is you, I really can't be strong. And hearing those things you said while in your sleep, I can't avoid feeling hope that there should be a chance for me and you.', she added while having teary eyes.
• Why is this escalating to such a degree? Why?
• I took a very deep breath and chose not to explain.
• I told her to not mind the things I said. I thanked her for waking me up and told her that I will treat her for tea in the company cafeteria after sorting my stuff.
• She nodded in confirmation and waited on the visitor's chair.
• I checked everything on my desk and also checked my phone.
• Then I saw a reply from Sarah.
• Clack! I dropped my phone on the table.
• What? Is Sarah for real?
• She is breaking up with me, again?
• Nooo. This can't be happening.
• I hurriedly tried calling her but it was directed straight to voicemail.
• I left a voicemail saying that we need to talk things out and call me when she receives it.
• I was devastated. In my sorrow, I even forgot that Dianne is around.
• I can't process the sudden decision that Sarah made.
• Is she still punishing me because of the sin I did to her in the past?
• I walked towards my couch and did not say anything. I am in so much pain.
• I may look tough but the matters of the heart are very hard for me.
• Laid down on the couch again, I can only put my hands on my face that is about to cry.
• Not long after, I felt someone sitting on my side and held my hands.
• 'I do not know what happened sir but please know that I am here for you as a friend. If you want to talk about it, I am here to listen.', Dianne comforted.
• I did not know what got into me. But what came after is something I honestly can't explain.
• I held Dianne's right hand which touched the hands on my face.
• I got up slowly and kissed her lips.
• Kiss!
• I guess Dianne was dumbfounded with what I did but after a slight pause, she also responded.
• We kissed again, and a very fiery and passionate one at that.