Chapter 74

• Jenny’s POV
• “I….. I like you Alex. More than I can care to admit even to myself. Those kisses we shared…. They only intensified those feelings and I…. I got scared of going into something I wasn’t even sure if it was real or not. I didn’t believe that you would actually like anything about me. I felt insecure and… I also felt afraid that you were just trying to get over her by trying something with me, and that maybe you would change your mind later and decide that you can’t get over that break up by being with me. And then….. Then I was afraid of the possibility of both of us loving each other so deeply, only for you to be killed by someone. Like what happened to your father. It was the thing that made me decide to stop anything form developing between us. It’s the only thing stopping me from telling you how I really feel. I’m afraid of loving you, then losing you against my will. I’m afraid of you leaving me alone and drowning me with the pain of everything we will not have anymore if I lose you. It will destroy me into nothing and I didn’t want to feel that much pain. I’m afraid of loving you Alex and it hurts beyond anything I can imagine to keep resisting that feeling especially after you poured your heart out to me so passionately. I’m just….. So scared of the future. Scared of… being left alone again” I said tensely as my tears continued to stream down my face.
• He was looking at me in agony and I wished I could read his thoughts at that moment.