Chapter 34

• Alpha Damien
• After letting Lucy choose her room, I returned to my bedroom, closed the door, and let out a sigh. Since yesterday, I have been a hot mess. I was angry at my brother for lying to me, but I also sympathized with him for having no choice but to lie to me. Why does my brother have to be gay? I resented God for it. Being gay is not a sin, but why does it have to be my brother? I was angry and sad.
• My emotions bounced crazily around, back and forth every minute. I thought about it all night, but I still could not make heads or tails out of it, and I was afraid to face my brother like this. I couldn’t even imagine confessing that I knew his secret. To be able to openly talk to my brother about this, I needed time.