Chapter 184

• Serafina
• I knew there would be some pain the first time I had sex. I knew because I'd read about it. And because I'd snuck a vibrator into my room once. A college classmate who I'd gotten to be friends with had snuck one to me when she found out I'd never been with a boy. But when I tried to use it, I'd been so nervous, and it had hurt so much I'd finally given up and hid the damn thing deep in my closet. So yes, I knew losing my virginity would hurt, but I never thought it would hurt like that.
• However, it wasn't just the physical pain I cried from. It was the shock that he would do what he did, knowing it hurt me, like he didn't even care.