Chapter 29 Stupid?

• I slowly opened puffy red eyes only to find myself lying alone in the bed. I clutched the sheet around me tightly when last night's scenes started flashing in my mind. My head hurt, and my throat was as dry as the desert from all the crying session. I hardly slept for two hours.
• I couldn't help but to sob for myself. I was feeling ashamed of myself. How could I be so desperate that I couldn't control my own body? I had a chance to get my body from the devil, but I lost that too. How dumb am I? I thought I could at least save my body, but now that too wasn't in my control.
• I don't belong to myself, my body doesn't belong to me now. I really thought that I could save my body, but I was played by both my body and him. Could I be more stupid?