Chapter 8

• So, I really went back time, huh?
• This time was 15 years ago and I am currently on my younger body as a 5 years old child. And the timing was great. I remember slipping and falling in the snow when Maxwell threw a snow ball towards Maxillary but Brother Maxillary was just near me, we both tried to avoid the snow ball but I slipped.
• But how did I went back time? Was someone involved or the Graces granted my wish to be with my family again?
• "Milady?"
• My mind was in a mess right now, all the things happened in my past experiences was now making sense when I think about it, I am making realizations that I did not realize in the first place. All of our actions really had reasons.
• Every unfortunate things would start 13 years later. I should stop everything from happening in the future-
• Milady!” Kath said in a loud voice and put her hands on my shoulder.
• “Ah.” I was too indulged in my thoughts that I forgot Kath was still here.
• She sighed. Worry was evident in her face again.
• I remembered, Kath died of protecting me in the Palace but this time, I would not let that happen again. I would not let past repeat in the future.
• “I am fine Kath.” I smiled at her that made her taken aback.
• “M-milady…” she said with teary eyes. Oh, I know why. In the past, I would not even smile at anyone because I was too stiff, thinking about being the Empress in the future.
• “Milady, are you really okay now?” Kath asked worriedly. Again.
• I smiled at her. “Maxine loves Kath too.” I said full of affection. How could I forget the sacrifices she had done for my sake in the past?
• She became teary eyed and suddenly hugged me.
• “Waaaah! My lady! I love you too!”She said crying. I see. She must also be totally shocked and at the same time, touched.
• I knew something has already changed. I changed. Can I also change the future?
• Kathe immediately distance from me and apologized. The reddening of her eyes were visible.
• I would not want being the Empress again. I must prevent myself from being a candidate of the Majesties as a Crown Princess to prevent the horrible things happened in the past…or would happen in the future?
• Well, it is my past and and definitely would become my future if I could not manage to turn the events.
• “You should rest, Milady. Do not push yourself again so this would not happen again.” She said gently. Kath is loyal to me and to House of Zachrono. Her mother wa also a maid here but died before I was born.
• She laid me carefully and pulled the blanket up to my neck. I closed my eyes before I felt Kath’s lips pecked on my forehead.
• “Rest well, My Lady. Everyone was worried about you.”
• I just closed my eyes but I did not have plan sleeping again. I feel like my body was already sleeping too much and I need to sort out the things that would happen in the future.
• I could not rest peacefully knowing what horrible things would happen.
• When I finally heard the opening and closing of the door, I immediately sat up. I got out my bed but my legs were still weak and wobbling too much but still
• , I managed to reach my study at least.
• I sat on the chair properly before reaching the quill, ink, and writing book.
• I should sort out all the events happened in ‘my’ past that might and would surely happen in the future in order to devise a plan. I wrote everything from the most minor details to the major information in the next 13 to 15 years.
• Just this year alone, a lot of things would happen. I should ready myself because I am the only one who holds the knowledge of the future. I should be wary and mostly… avoid crossing my path with the Crowned Prince’s.
• Meeting him means the end of this household. I should prevent that from happening.
• I was busy writing when someone knocked on the door. I quickly his what I was writing in a safe place before I flew in the bed and pretended like I just woken up from the knock. The door opened and Kath entered the room with a trolley. I immediately smelled the fragrance of the new cooked food in the air that made my stomach rumbled.
• Oh right, I was in the bed for three days straight. It was normal that I would feel hungry. I just realized by now that I was hungry, maybe because my mind was too occupied by what would happen in the future just after I woke up.
• "Young Lady, it is already lunch time. I know you are already hungry. The chef prepared something especially for you to celebrate your recovery." Kath said while walking, pushing the trolley towards me.
• How about Dad and Brothers? Would they eat? I wish to eat with them.
• In the past, we never ate altogether because one was always busy that we often crossed our paths even we were just inside of the same Palace. Or am I the only one they could not see and meet?
• Looks like Kath knew what I was thinking or the thought was just really visible in my face?
• "Your Grace, Young Master Maximillian, Young Master Maximo and Young Master Maxlein are busy in the training ground while Young Master Maxillary and Young Master Maxwell are studying in the library." she informed.
• "Oh. Okay..." I whispered disappointed.
• I started eating while I was all aware on the odd look Kath was giving me all the time I was eating. I just ignored her and focused on the food infront of me.
• Around this time of the month, I remember Viscount Ystradgynlais' fourth son would have his coming-of-age ceremony to celebrate his adulthood and our household would be invited in the banquet.
• The youngest and fifth son of the Viscount would be embarrassed by the celebrant at the banquet but soon, he would be the youngest Cardinal in the history at 10 years age meaning, after 2 years.
• Right now, the fifth son was still just an ordinary servant but sooner or later, he would go up in the ranks of the Temple because he has so much divine power, enough to become a Cardinal. He was just hiding his true powers because his family did not want him to be more powerful than them, the family did not want their so called ‘black sheep’ be known. Viscount Ystradgynlais and their whole family always degrades their youngest for being birth by a lowly maid. Even the maids look down on him.
• He would have great contributions in the Temple and would be infamous in the public for his deeds. He would also be Maxillary's friend in the future but I think, I also have to befriend him from now on because I need him to help me stabilize my future, our future.
• I need a plan to save him from embarrassment to win his trust. Hmm...
• After eating, I decided to take a walk in the whole Castle because of boredom. The old interiors of the Palace gave me a feeling of tranquility. I missed the lively bright hallway, the arrangement of the flowers, the portraits hanging on the wall, the color of the hall, the old scent of the scented candles and mostly, the big portrait of our family hanging in the middle of the grand staircase that was taken when I was 3 years old.
• How time flies...
• I also went back time to have the chance to change everything.
• I went to the library because I want to read for my past time. Good thing, I still remember all the knowledges I studied in my past life. That would come helpful. Now, I just have to gather more knowledge in order to help me devising plans in the future.
• Economy, politics, war strategies and everything connected to the problems I remember that would arise in the future. I already studied these subjects in the past, actually but my plans in the past failed several times and took more time to be solved so I need to read it over again and understand it more thoroughly.
• I need something to turn down the Emperor's proposal for me to be a Crown Princess. In the past, I was already the official Crowned Princess for the two Majesties because they favored me too much and His Majesty only picked ladies from different noble families to be a candidate to the Crown Princess position out of whims with the Empress and of course, to follow the rituals of choosing a Crown Princess.
• But none of the candidates became the Empress because...
• "Miss, do you want snacks? I will tell the chef right away to prepare some." Kath said as I sat. I nodded and smiled at her that made her unconsciously smiled too. Were they mesmerized by my smile?
• Actually, I was still not used smiling because in my past life, I was too stiff and I never smiled and there was nothing for me to smile to. But now, just by seeing the people sacrificed for me in the past life, I could not help but to smile on them like it was a natural thing for me to do.
• I stood up and walked in front of the big mirror inside the library. I looked at my reflection and smiled. I am really too cute!
• No wonder, they seems so flushed when I smiled on them. I should smile often, no one's not gonna like cute and beautiful children. Everyone hated me for being too stiff in the past that even I did nothing good nor wrong, they always talked behind my back.
• Maybe appearance really describe one's attitude in the eyes of the people. I need to look friendlier to be able to socialize. I need to build a firm foundation that would support me in the future.