Chapter 114

• [Carnelia]
• I tried to stay strong and be regal and centered, but seeing my babies suffer made me hesitate to leave them even for a moment. What if I took a selfish moment to be somewhere else only to find they had taken a dark turn? Could I forgive myself if they stopped breathing while I was off attending to a personal need?
• What kind of mother am I to leave them like I did when they were suffering? I should have sent someone else to speak on my behalf.