Chapter 21

• It’s been a few days since that weird moment in the mall between Beau and me. I never got to find out what Beau was doing in the jewelry store that day since I haven’t heard from or seen him since then, and I’m grateful for that. Mainly because I’m not sure how to act around him right now. Before, I always felt angry whenever I saw him, but now I don’t know how to feel. I am still hurt by what he did, but I am not as hurt as I was a few months before he came back into my life. My emotions are all over the place and seeing him would only worsen matters. For one reason, specifically. Beau doesn’t know how to keep his hands to himself, and the fact that my stupid body loves it is not a good thing. But my sex dreams have lessened a little lately, which is good. My shower head and hot water have had some time off these past few days at least, so thumbs up for me.
• I blow out a breath and try to push Beau out of my mind as I check my reflection using the full-length mirror in my room before walking downstairs to join my dad. One of his associates is having a party tonight and he’s bringing me along. I am wearing a sleeveless, nude, tulle gown with shiny handmade embroideries. There’s a slit down the side, exposing my legs. My thighs clench together as I remember what happened the last time I wore a dress like this.
• Dad and I walk outside once the car is ready. I thank God as we drive to the party because the chances of seeing Beau tonight are low. It’s bad enough that the mere thought of what happened the last time I dressed like this makes me hot. I can’t even imagine what would happen if I saw Beau after I told him I wouldn’t ever dress like this. He would make me never want to break my promise again, and I can bet he would do it in way that I would hate to admit I enjoyed.