Chapter 5

• “Stop thinking about it Ana, you have nothing to worry about, and why did you come to look for me?” She says, and it takes me a minute to remember why
• “I came to look for you so I could borrow your phone. I need to call my mom,” I say, recalling the reason I came to look for her.
• “Oh, no problem, here,” She says, handing me her phone from her back pocket.
• I am actually surprised she gave me her phone. I thought she was going to ask me why I came to her and not the Alpha. I even thought he might have told everyone not to give me their phone. I guess he is not as bright as I thought. If he wanted me to never speak to anyone from my old pack. He would have told everyone not to give me a phone.
• “Thank you,” I say, taking it from her hand and quickly dial mom’s number. It rings for a few seconds before mom answers.
• “Hi, mom, it’s me, Ana; how are you?” I say once she answers the phone
• “My baby girl, are you really the one I am speaking to? How are you doing? I hope you are not harmed or injured in any way?”
• “I am doing fine, mom and I am not harmed or injured in any way.”
• “Thank God, and when are you coming back? Our Alpha said, you are in our Alpha king’s territory. How did you end up there, and I hope they are treating you well there?”
• “They are treating me well, and rogues attacked me. The Alpha king saved me and brought me back to his territory. About when I am coming back, I don’t know for now. But I will try to beg the Alpha king to allow you to come and visit me if I can’t visit you.”
• “Oh my God, you were attacked by rogues. I hope you are fine? And why won’t the Alpha king allow you to come back home? Why might I need to come and visit you?”
• “As I said earlier, mom, I am doing fine. I have fully recovered. And about coming home and why the alpha king has a say in it is because.…….” I hesitate because once I say what I am about to say. I know I am not going to like what she is going to say next. “He is my mate” Once I say the words out of my mouth, I hear mom’s breath catch in her throat. She does not say anything for a good minute before asking me the one question I know she will not like my answer to.
• “Have you rejected him as I told you to?”
• Now it’s my turn to take a minute before I answer.
• “No, I haven’t,” I say, waiting for the storm to arrive
• “Why, I told you how important it is for you to reject him.”
• “Actually, mom, you didn’t. You just told me I need to reject him for my own safety. I have been here for a month, and nothing has happened to me, so I don’t see why I have to reject him.”
• “You have to reject him; it’s better you don’t know why and just do it.”
• “Mom, I can’t. I can’t reject him when you don’t even explain how he is dangerous to me” I don’t wish to fight with her, but I deserve a good explanation of why I should reject him.
• “I can’t tell you.”
• “Then I won’t do it.”
• “Anastasia, I am your mother and if I tell you to do something. You should do it, and I don’t have to explain why to you.”
• “Mom, I can’t, and I have to go; the owner of the phone needs it back” I lie because I don’t want to continue fighting with her.
• “We will continue this discussion another time. Goodbye, my dear and take care of yourself. I love you.”
• “Bye, mom. I love you too,” I say and hang up the phone.
• “Do you think your mom wants you to reject your mate because of the Alpha king’s reputation?” Charlotte asks
• “No, I doubt, because she has told me to reject my mate no matter who he is.”
• “Oh, I really wonder why she wants you to reject your mate.”
• “Me too, and can I call someone else if you don’t mind.”
• “Yes, you can.”
• I called Chloe to find out how she is doing. Like my mom, she asked me a million questions. The only difference was that Chloe was actually happy I found my mate. She even thought we had completed the mating process but was sad to find out we have not. She misses me terribly as I miss her. I just wish Theodore would let me visit her and mom one day or let them come and see me.
• Later in the day, Charlotte shows me how to work the TV in the living room and puts in a show to watch. We are currently watching gossip girl, the reboot, and it’s incredible. While we are watching, I feel a burst of anger in me, and I am confused. I am not angry; if anything, I am happy. The second Theodore ’s scent drifts through my nose, and a very pissed-off Alpha is standing in the living room. I understand where the emotion is coming from. He must be really pissed off because for me to feel his emotion without competing the mating process must mean he is super angry.
• “Charlotte , out,” Theodore says; Charlotte quickly bows her head down and does as he says.
• “What’s wrong?” I feel the urge to touch him and help him cool down, but I hold myself back. I have heard of how your mate’s touch can help you cool down, but I know if I do that, he will push me away.
• “You should know what is wrong. Didn’t I tell you not to call your mother, and who even gave you the phone you used” He says, in an angry tone. I wonder how he found out, and; he seems really pissed off about the fact that I spoke to my mom. I am so happy Charlotte is not here because she won’t have been able to lie with him using the Alpha tone right now. I can’t also lie to an Alpha, but this is not just any Alpha to my wolf. He is our equal, so his Alpha tone can’t work on me, so I blunt out lie.
• “I don’t know what you are talking about?” I say, looking at the ground, making sure to avoid eye contact with him.
• “You don’t know what I am talking about?” He says, sounding angrier by the second
• “Yes, I don’t” I can’t tell him I used Charlotte ’s phone to speak to my mom. That is going to put her in trouble, and she does not deserve that.
• “Look me in the eyes, and tell me you don’t know what I am talking about?” He says, taking a step closer to me. I feel my heart rate increase with him closer to me, but it should not. That will give me out; I try to steady my heartbeat, but it’s hard with him this close to me. His scent is all around me, and my wolf is dancing with him this close to us.
• ‘Let me out,’ Eva says
• ‘Now is not the time.’
• ‘His wolf is on the surface; let me out. I want to meet my mate.’
• ‘That is not true.’
• I tell Eva, but the second his hand lifts my chin and my eyes lock with his. I know Eva is not lying. His beautiful blue eyes are replaced with a pair of golden brown, but the colour of his eyes keeps changing. His wolf is fighting to take control, but Theodore won’t let it. I have heard of how the wolf of an Alpha is the hardest to control. He must be fighting hard to push his wolf back.
• “Tell me,” He growls in my face.
• I give up and tell him the truth. I also don’t want an alpha wolf on the loose. He might be our mate, but they can lose control when they are angry, like right now.
• “Yes, I spoke to my mom today, but I don’t know whose phone I used. I went into the packhouse, and I stole a phone to use it to call her.”
• If he can be this angry with me about calling my mother, I don’t want to think about what he will do to Charlotte if he finds out she is the one who gave me the phone to call.
• “Did I not tell you not to communicate with anyone from your old pack?”
• “Yes, you did, but I needed to speak to my mom.”
• “Why don’t you ever listen to me,” He says, taking more steps closer to me while saying every word in my face. I walk back and stop once my back hits a wall.
• I don’t know what to reply, so I just look at the floor and avoid eye contact with him. He uses his hands to massage his temple before he grabs me by my arms. This causes me to lock eyes with him in surprise from him holding my arms.
• “You drive me crazy; why can’t you just listen to me? Is it so hard to listen to me” He says in rage as he shakes my body with every word he says. I can feel fear slipping into my body from his behaviour. I only called my mom; I don’t understand why he is so angry. I can even feel myself on the verge of tears; why is my mate always mad at me. It makes me very sad that this is the only emotion I get from my mate.
• “I am sorry,” I say, feeling tiny teardrops fall from my eyes. I feel like I am the reason for his anger, so I apologize. Once he sees the tears in my eyes, he quickly removes his hands from my arm and wipes away my tears. His hands linger a little longer than supposed to on my face, but he pulls it away before I can enjoy the feeling of his hand on my face. The second his hands drop from my face, he disappears from my line of vision. I can’t help it and fall to the ground and start crying. Why does every conversation with my mate end with me in tears? I don’t know why we can’t be like normal mates and make each other smile any time we see each other. I crawl myself on the ground and cry for my doomed fate with my mate.