Chapter 3 Mattia De Luca

• Mattia de Luca
• Cazzo di merda…
• I glance at the girl next to me and only now remember when Giulia was home last holiday trying to convince her friend to join us. I glanced at her image then, but didn't really take in her features.
• Now, I'm shocked to realize that she's just a girl, not a woman who simply hasn't found the right person yet.
• I'm such an idiot for not realizing that she was just a girl who probably wanted her first time to be magical.
• I took her virginity with her facing away from me, and I wasn't gentle; instead, I was like a raging buffalo, thrilled to feel how tight she was. Now that Giulia has left, I’ve practically kidnapped my daughter's friend. I need to make amends with this girl for the terrible man I've been.
• But as I sat her down in the car seat, she still smelled of me, I saw how she was craving my touch, and I nearly took her lips in mine again.
• I need to think of what I can do to make amends with her. Who knows what this girl might think of this, she might see it as just a bet with her friends.
• I drove the car, not paying attention to the traffic signs, and heard her breathing a bit accelerated. The little I looked at her, I saw she was lost in her thoughts and looking outside.
• I can't deny that I am similarly trying to understand what happened in that library and, especially now, taking the girl from the party without explaining myself to my daughter.
• I still need to think about what I will say to Giulia when she starts calling me. I take a deep breath and already see the entrance of the building where I bought an apartment for Giulia; I notice she seems nervous.
• "Nervous, my dear?" I lay it on thick with the accent.
• "I've just been kidnapped, how do you think I feel?" she turns to face me, her arms crossed over her chest.
• I feel a stir of arousal just noticing that she was excited, her nipples hardened and her skin taking on a rosy hue that made her even more beautiful.
• I refocus on driving; I cannot afford to be attracted to a girl, especially not my daughter's friend. I'm sure this could cause a lot of trouble. I shouldn't even consider having this girl again.
• Giulia could get hurt, and especially Alessa.
• Damn, even her name is beautiful. It doesn’t help that she has an exotic beauty, with that shade of blonde hair, grayish eyes, and a few freckles delicately dotting the bridge of her nose and her cheeks.
• Her fingers are intertwined in front of her body, I can feel that she's nervous, especially with the beep sound as we pass each floor.
• I turned towards her and observed her as she looked at me. I searched in her eyes for something that could keep me away from this girl, but she seemed as needy as I was at that moment.
• I drop my shoes on the floor and move closer with a desire so palpable, almost touchable. I pin her body against the cold metal and do what I've been craving since the moment I saw her next to me.
• The kiss, full of desire, shows what I truly want with her tonight. At this moment, the desire I feel and the reality that she is forbidden are not things I want to think about.
• I feel her hands clasp the collar of my shirt, I passionately suck on her lower lip, and let my hands wander over her body while I long to feel her wrapped around me again.
• The jolt of the elevator is enough to snap us back to reality. I give her a gentler kiss on the lips and notice how swollen they are with my desperate longing for them.
• But what can I say? She has something that drove me even crazier than the moment I first saw her in front of the place where I foolishly took her. I held her hand and pulled her toward the apartment.
• My head was so cluttered that I had no idea what to say, and from the look on her face, she was just as frightened as I was.
• We entered the apartment and I let her explore the place while I headed to the bar and poured myself a twelve-year-old Scotch, the only bottle there since I had brought it over today.
• "Why did you bring me here?" she asked, standing in the middle of the living room, as I turned around.
• I downed the contents of the glass in one go, feeling the burn in my throat. Then, I refilled the glass and looked at the girl waiting for my response.
• When I bought the apartment, it was fully furnished. I had requested three bedrooms, knowing that Giulia shared her dormitory with a friend, and I thought she might invite her to live together.
• "You are here because I was harsh with you," I said, taking a sip.
• I extended my hand for her to sit in the armchair next to me, saw her face waver, and let her make her own decisions.
• "There’s no need for redemption, Mr. De Luca, I’m fine," she said, making a slight grimace and crossing her legs tightly.
• "I don’t believe you. Why don't you sit so we can talk?" I said softly, trying to persuade her.
• She took a deep breath, probably realizing she wouldn’t leave until we had our conversation. I watched her as she tried to pull the fabric to cover her beautiful legs.
• "Shy, Miss?" Her eyes stayed fixed on her thighs, a blush coloring her cheeks.
• "I shouldn't be here..."
• I finish what's left in the glass and leave it on the floor. Getting up from the couch, I walk slowly over to where the girl is sitting, looking nervous.
• "I won't hurt you," I say as I sit down beside her.
• "I do want to make it up to you. No woman deserves a first time like yours," I say in a softer tone.
• I lift her chin and wait for her eyes to meet mine; I need to know how she's feeling above all. I'm ashamed of how rough I was with her.
• Alessa has a body that seems so vulnerable. I was an idiot to let her get involved with me like that, and I know she must be sore all over.
• "Don't look at me like that," she says indignantly.
• "Like what?" I ask, suppressing a laugh.
• I found her beautiful with her irritated demeanor.
• "Like I'm some innocent girl who was seduced by an older man," she says, this time I can't resist and let out a laugh.
• "Quite the opposite, I was the one seduced!" I lean in closer to her face.
• "What are you doing?" she whispers.
• "Showing that I can be gentle..."
• I capture her lips again, feeling her surrender as she wraps her arms around my neck.
• "I accept your offer..."
• That's all I needed, for her to say she accepts being mine again.