Chapter 113

• "She knows. I don't care about specifics because it doesn't matter. She just threatened me. She just tried to blackmail me. She wants whatever the fuck it is she wants and she wants me to help her get it because since we are fucking, I should be able to make you change your mind." The outburst pours out of me. I am angry and I don't know what it is I am mad at. Everything. And yet nothing at all.
• My rage is hollow. I feel so small. It is feelings like these I used to have to deal with regularly when I lived with Kathryn in between boarding schools and new boyfriends. Before Linc came into the picture. She used to make me feel so small and insignificant. I especially hated it when she dragged me to meet her similarly shallow friends. And they all collectively made me feel small and insignificant.
• I have just had the worst day of my life. And to think it started with a quickie. Look at how southwards the day has degenerated into. It all started with those damned detectives. I can't get over the subtle condescension Detective Hugh treated me with. Unprovoked. The looks he gave me, they are etched in my memory. I don't think Linc noticed or he just didn't care to address it.