Chapter 4 : I Want to Have This Child

• I shook my body, feeling a liquid in my eyes. I clenched my fists and lowered my head, saying in a low voice, "Mr. Huo is right... someone like me, with this kind of background, is really not suitable for attending this kind of banquet. Please allow me to leave."
• "Well... alright, I didn't think it through. Next time, I'll invite you alone, is that okay?"
• Upon hearing this, Yu Jia looked apologetically at me.
• I didn't say anything, and Mr. Huo didn't pay any attention to me either. He had someone escort me out.
• I didn't know how I managed to leave. Watching the backs of Mr. Huo and Yu Jia walking hand in hand, tears uncontrollably rolled down my cheeks.
• The two of them truly looked like a perfect couple, while I... felt like a fool.
• I wiped away the tears with the back of my hand, gritted my teeth, and continued walking forward.
• Huo Chengjin and I were ultimately people from two different worlds.
• The servant escorted me out of the villa, looking at me disdainfully. After all, my appearance spoke for itself.
• I straightened my back and left the Yu family with my head held high.
• This was originally an upscale villa area, and it wasn't easy to find a taxi. I walked for an hour, and by then, it was already dark. Both of my feet were trembling.
• Just when I was exhausted and wanted to call Yang Xue to ask her to pick me up, a black car slowly passed by me. I turned around and saw Huo Chengjin kissing Yu Jia inside the car.
• The two of them kissed passionately, their actions ambiguous and enticing. My face turned pale, and all the strength in my body seemed to drain away in an instant.
• I sat directly on the ground, staring blankly at the car that had already gone far away.
• Huo Chengjin...
• Tears kept falling, no matter how much I wiped them away.
• I curled up my body, hugging myself tightly, and started crying loudly in pain.
• It felt so uncomfortable... truly unbearable.
• Huo Chengjin, I like you, what should I do? What should I do?
• When Yang Xue came to pick me up, it had already been half an hour. I had cried like a madwoman on the street for half an hour, and my eyes were so swollen that I couldn't face anyone.
• After learning about Huo Chengjin's true identity, Yang Xue gasped in shock.
• "We've never paid attention to the world of the wealthy, but I never expected... he's so rich? So, he married you just because Yu Jia married Lei Ming, and he married you out of spite?"
• I held a cup and looked at the water inside without saying a word.
• Seeing my silence, Yang Xue became furious.
• "This is just too much. Even if he's rich, he shouldn't act so recklessly and treat marriage as a game..."
• "It's not his fault. I agreed to the marriage in the first place." I looked up and said to Yang Xue.
• Upon hearing this, Yang Xue didn't know what to say to me. She just rubbed her nose and sighed, "Why do I feel like Yu Jia deliberately invited you to the Yu family just to humiliate you?"
• I thought of Yu Jia's noble and elegant appearance, then looked at my cheap clothes. That unattainable world was something I could never reach in this lifetime.
• "I'm a bit tired. I want to sleep."
• "Then rest well. Don't think too much about it. No matter how rich Huo Chengjin is, it has nothing to do with you anymore. You two are finished."
• Seeing that I looked exhausted, Yang Xue patted my shoulder and sighed deeply.
• I put down the cup and went back to my room to sleep.
• Closing my eyes, I could still see Huo Chengjin's expressionless face. In the year of our marriage, I had never gotten close to him.
• After that day, I pretended that nothing had happened and continued to go to work until one month later, when I found out I was pregnant.
• When I held the pregnancy test results, I was dumbfounded.
• I never thought I would get pregnant, and this child was conceived on the day Huo Chengjin asked for a divorce.
• During the year of our marriage, Huo Chengjin and I shared the same bed every day. He had a strong desire, always lingering with me for a long time, but I never got pregnant because Huo Chengjin said he didn't want a child so soon, and I believed him.
• Now, looking back, I was truly naive.
• From the very beginning, Huo Chengjin treated this marriage as a game to spite Yu Jia. He would never let me get pregnant.
• When Yu Jia divorced Lei Ming, Huo Chengjin immediately divorced me. It was clear how much he loved Yu Jia.
• "You young people, I really don't understand what you're thinking. If you don't want to get pregnant, take proper precautions. If you want to have an abortion, I can make an appointment for you in advance."
• The doctor saw my absent-minded expression and thought I didn't want this child. She frowned at me.
• My heart tightened, and I tightly held the pregnancy test results in my hand. I bit my lip and said to the doctor, "I want to have this child."
• Yes, I decided to give birth to this child and leave this city.
• That night, I told Yang Xue about my pregnancy and my decision to quit my job and return to my hometown.
• Yang Xue thought I had gone crazy. She said, "Don't be foolish, Nan Yi. How can you raise a child on your own? You've finally established yourself here, with a good income. Now you want to go back to your hometown? I think you've really lost it."
• When I first came to the capital, I did all kinds of jobs. Later, I followed Yang Xue into the current company and became a copy editor. The salary and everything were good, just like what Yang Xue said. If I quit, I would never find a job with a higher salary than this.
• But I had to leave the capital. I was worried that Huo Chengjin would find out about the pregnancy, and he wouldn't want this child.
• "Besides, you and Huo Chengjin are already divorced. There's no need to keep this child."
• Seeing me remain silent, Yang Xue continued.
• I clenched my fists and looked at Yang Xue. "Yang Xue, I want to have this child."