Chapter 78 Losing Him

• At first, I convinced myself that I might have been imagining it, but as the hours went by, I started to feel like it wasn't a coincidence at all. I didn't even understand why Raphael was ignoring me as if he was upset by something that I had done. If there was someone who should have been upset, it should have been me, not him. Rosabella and her father were there to welcome us warmly to their mansion. By the time we arrived, every invited member from their side of the family was already there. The luxurious and high-ceilinged living room of Rosabella's mansion was decorated with pink and white roses and lilies, filling the room with a sweet and loving aroma. The room had been transformed by the decoration to give off a vibe of a fairy tale castle where the prince and princess were about to get engaged.
• I could barely focus on the event itself without getting distracted and lost in my own thoughts. Raphael was getting engaged, and soon he would be married to Rosabella. Putting how I felt about that aside, there was also the dark and twisted issue of his family running the country's most notorious Mafia syndicate that I could not ignore. I glanced at my mother, who was laughing joyfully with her arms linked with Bennett, as I wondered what I should do.
• There was no doubt that when the truth came out, this beautiful, peaceful, and joyous life that my mother had built for herself would come crashing down on us. The dark secret that I now knew felt like a heavy burden inside my chest that I didn't know how to deal with. At the same time that I wanted to shout out the truth at the top of my lungs to get rid of this burden and finally feel relief, I also felt like I wanted to bury the secret away forever so that no one else, especially my mother, would ever find out about it. My thoughts and feelings struggled inside of me until I felt like they were going to drive me mad.