Chapter 45

• Adrian
• After the fiesta with Zorya and Nikolai, I’ve been trying to avoid him just the same way I’ve been trying to forget that night. And trust me, anything I try, barely works. I’m always thinking of Nikolai and avoiding him is only killing me from the inside.
• Nikol already left and I did not need to feel jealous again as she wouldn’t be seen around Nikolai again, hovering around like a fly. After dinner, I don’t know why I stand up to drag my feet to Nikolai’s room. Avoiding won’t work. I’ve not been feeling myself so it’s best to accept the feelings and eventually grow tired of it.