Chapter 58 Biggest Mistake

• Standing and staring out of the window, she wrapped her arm around herself as she felt the chilly breeze, it was getting windy like it was going to rain, her face was blank but her heart was heavy, and her mind was occupied with lots of thoughts.
• ' I want to be strong, I have to be strong', she said as she recalled every event, none of it was pleasant, all bitter and worse memories, her life had turned upside down right from the moment she was told that her parents were dead, after the funeral she couldn't remember the last time she had a smile or laugh heartedly, she remembered when her clothes get tighter and when her foot wears cut, she has to walk around barefooted, put on tattered clothes. Her cries from the beatings, the maltreatments, the words that cut deeper than sword, her first wedding day that was a memory she doesn't want to remember, the night her virginity was taken violently, her cries and agony that night, her pleads and screams that tears her apart, how she lost her baby, the baby she had decided to keep even though it entails a nightmare, she was happy to have it and glad she wouldn't be alone anymore but even that was taken away from her.
• Becoming an orphan, maltreated, abandoned, neglected, lonely, raped, divorced, and miscarriage, she gathered every one of them and turned them into armor, getting stronger in a way she wouldn't have to feel the same feeling again, she wants to leave her life from that day onward in a way she would never regret, she doesn't want to regret not talking back, she doesn't want to regret not letting them know how much they crush her soul, and if she wants to do everything in her mind, then she has to be strong and the only person who can help her with that is Christian.