Chapter 1068 The Lost Cunty Girl:>Ep4

• When I was in my room, I'd hear him talking, laughing and bantering with mum and, I'll admit, I felt a certain amount of envy, no jealousy, that he could be so happy with her, so natural, while I still didn't really exist, but also that she'd suddenly decided to take him away from me, overwhelm him with all this care and attention.
• He, of course, lapped it up; it had been missing from his life for so long that he was revelling in it, and I didn't blame him one little bit; I just wished I could have had some too...
• When I was sixteen, the Morrison's held a birthday party for Nia and I, as we were only a week apart, and I for sure wasn't going to get one at home, and I was struck again by how much was really wrong with our family, but I also knew that we were unfixable now, and that as soon as I could, I'd go, get out of there and find a life somewhere else, because the travesty we had was a slow-burning fuse, and one day it would blow apart again, and I'd likely be back in the A & E. Mum had seen Mark and I interacting a few times, and she'd expressed to him several times that he should talk to me about leaving soon, that I should go because I had no place there once I'd finished school. This worried Mark, he could see the resentment building again, and tried to defuse it, but I really had nowhere to go, no relatives that I knew of, and Nia's family was a refuge, not a living option.