Chapter 1186 A Visit To My Rapist:>>Ep2

• With a slow pace, I walk down the hallway as I head to HIS door. I know exactly where My Rapist lives because of the police. They sent an email informing me when he was set to be released from jail. It gave the conditions of his release, such as the restraining order and that any interaction with me would mean instant jail time. All the same, they advised me not go near this address.
• I pass door after door, feeling very helpless the closer I get to his apartment. Despite being alone, it feels like someone has a gun pointed at me, even if I'm completely free. It makes me feel very dark and helpless, which is a feeling I'm not used to. It's that feeling that makes my body tremble, showing that it very much likes feeling like this.
• "It's my Christmas gift, it's my Christmas gift," I repeat under my breath as if it is a mantra as my walk slows to a crawl. I know thinking that being raped again is a horrible and stupid Christmas gift, but it's the only thing keeping me sane. That my Christmas gift to myself is to have another real orgasm and be free of the dark clutches of the bastard.